Iowa Writes

At the Age of 14

At the age of 14 I made a terrible error in judgment. I took the life of a person who truly loved me unconditionally. I will forever be haunted by the decisions I made with my own two hands. After spending over half my life in prison I am asking for a second chance and it is a very shameful thing to want to ask for that. Why I say shameful? Because I can't even ask my aunt if she will forgive me for ripping the life right out of her. But here I am asking for a second chance at life. One thing I do know is I am not that 14-year-old little girl any more. I am a 30-year-old woman. Yes I have taken the classes, read the books, and I "know" the tools that can help me change, but honestly, growth, responsibility and rehabilitation come from within. I had to unlock the doors of my mind and heart that kept me locked away for many many years. I figured out the secret passageway that I used for my easy out from my fears, hurts, pain, guilt, and anger. I had to change in order to grow. I am wanting to believe I am worthy. If the law is passed I will know I am. I am writing this so that anyone who reads this can know about me, and how I feel about what I have done.

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Since 2006, Iowa Writes has featured the work of Iowa-identified writers (whether they have Iowa roots or live here now) and work published by Iowa journals and publishers on The Daily Palette. Iowa Writes features poetry, fiction, or nonfiction twice a week on the Palette.

In November of 2008, the United Nations Educational, Scientific and Cultural Organization (UNESCO) designated Iowa City, Iowa, the world's third City of Literature, making the community part of the UNESCO Creative Cities Network.

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Kristina was a prisoner at the Iowa Correctional Institute for Women when she wrote this piece, which was read during a public performance in Shambaugh Auditorium by the Women in Exile Project.

The Women in Exile Project is a collaboration between the women at the Iowa correctional Institute for Women, volunteers from the Women's Resource and Action Center, the Women's Archive at the University of Iowa Libraries and the Art Education Department at the University of Iowa. The project has worked with a select group of women at ICIW to publish a series of memoirs and images. The memoirs will become a part of the Women's Archive and the images part of a permanent collection located at the Women's Resource and Action Center.

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