Iowa Writes

NED BALBO
"After Nora Sturges' paintings Marco Polo Watches Blue People and At the End of the Desert, You Arrive at Karkan, Where There Is Two of Everything"


What would I have done
on that clear day in the past
while I practiced to improve my skills
at soccer, catch, or stickball

on the banks of a stream so clear
I could see myself in it,
if I'd found my father watching?  Not
the man I called my father,

who shared his bagel gladly
and gave pointers on my swing,
but a man I'd never met, some stranger
who hung back and eavesdropped

behind trees and water-weeds?
What would I have said?
I wouldn't have been surprised, my skin
not even really blue

but the color of our cat:
diluted, light gray, coffee-tinged
—Was I her offspring, kids at school would laugh,
so different from my parents,

whose own skin at midsummer
burned to true cerulean.
Would I have shouted, Show yourself,
quit your furtive lurking,

declare your true intention
as a father or a friend?

Or would I have left, ashamed, my mother's
long-rehearsed evasions

explaining far too much?
—Marco Polo, these are questions
I must put to you today.  Your yellowed
postcard—scrawled in haste,

ink-blotched, ambiguous—
tells me nothing of your life
as Kubla Khan's ambassador, or father
of more sons and daughters

than you'll ever know.
An orange sheet dries on the line,
tomatoes ripen on the window sill—
and, inside, Mother weeps

not for your memory,
Marco Polo, long ago
fled into shadow, but for the grief she knew
in hiding you from me,

for her husband's love
and full devotion to her son,
and for this last, hard choice: to share her evidence
of you, postmarked Karkan,

Some Other Era, when
a man did as he pleased on journeys
of discovery.  One day, I, too,
will leave this village, bid

farewell to quiet days,
the blue sky mirroring our skin,
the clear stream and the evergreens; and, yes,
this woman who connects us

to each other and herself,
and, finally, to something larger:
the fragile human family. Till then,
I only have your postcard,

with its clues to who I am
and who you are, absent Father,
famed explorer far away, its haunting
image of Karkan

inviting my departure
with its lush, unearthly beauty:
palm trees, fruit, blood-orange sand—a paradise,
perhaps, that's yours, or mine.

Happy National Poetry Month!

April is National Poetry Month and Iowa Writes is celebrating by featuring a poem by an Iowa-connected poet every day this week! To learn more about National Poetry Month 2015, please visit the Academy of American Poets website.


NED BALBO

Ned Balbo is the author of three books, most recently The Trials of Edgar Poe and Other Poems (Story Line Press/WCU Poetry Center), which received the 2010 Donald Justice Prize.  New poems are out or forthcoming in The Hopkins Review, Shenandoah, Sewanee Theological Review, Dogwood, and elsewhere.  He teaches at Loyola University Maryland.

"After Nora Sturges' etc." originally appeared in Volume 41, Issue 2 of The Iowa Review.

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